Only one chance /// Feb 22nd 2010

This Blog was partially written from my blackberry and partially at home on my laptop.

I Have just found out the value life can have. I'm typing on my blackberry for i have been in an accident. I'm alright, i'm not badly injured. I thank God that nothing major happened to me. My back and my neck both hurt, i've must have injured my bones or something.

The interstate can be really dangerous though one never really knows. It was around 5:00 AM when it happened. I was on my way to school from my grandmas. I woke up at 4:00 AM for i wold have to drive 2 hours in order to make it to my 7 am class, which is mechanics of materials. I had decided to stay the previous night, for i wanted to spend some time with my cousin. We out, i saw on my side view that another car had lost control too and came towards me. I stepped out of the car as fast as a could and i ran as far as i could. The car collided against mine on the back, my trunk: completely destroyed.

I walked out of the side road onto the rocks and grass there and i was shaking big time, partially from the cold, it must have been around 27 degrees, and the nerves of being in an accident. i realized there were people coming out of the car that hit me and i ran to see if they needed any help. fortunately they were all alright. It was insurance time. We both pulled out our insurance things and called them. it took mine about an hour to get there, while the other guy's never got there.


From my computer:

Later on while fixing damages and what they covered or not, i decided to call grandma and see if she could help me with anything. She moved her contacts and they took me back to her house so that my car could be taken to a shop and i, driven to the hospital. I was right i had a minor injury on the neck for i have to be using the little neck thingy on it for two weeks( it's gonna be so uncomfortable later on).


Its really weird when you think you are going to die you think of a lot of stuff on those seconds, and they seem like eternity. I thought of my family, my friends, what would happen, a little "Oh Shit" and i also thought of you.


There's things that are within my mind that i would like to say to you. i just don't know how. I like the you when you're drowsy. It makes me happy, all you say while you are in that state. Did you know, everything you say while you're drowsy or asleep it's truly meant, it has more significance within you, for it is not a lie.

I dunno what sort of spell it is that you have over me, over my mind, over my actions. just as when you give chord to a tiny dancer on a melody box, i keep going everytime you turn the dial one more time. The accident made me realize I've got only one single chance at everything, i need to take every opportunity i have.

but anyway, i shouldn't say much.

I'm really tired and i think i should go to bed. I'm beginning to feel very drowsy
i may say thing i shouldn't.

Btw i realized i can type with my eyes closed. ^^

Good night everyone

Valentine's Day Special /// February 13th 2010

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And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new



So this Song has been stuck in my head for about a week now, ever since i listened to it i felt something weird, i don't know, maybe memories, feelings, who knows. Its name is "the blower's daughter" by Damien Rice, it is included in the soundtrack for the film "Closer", i started watching it last night but i was too tired and i only got to see about 15 minutes of it.

Tomorrow's Valentine's day, one of the days of the year that i really can't stand, it's all just so yucky and clingy and Mellow. o.O YUCK!!!! i really have no idea of why are people so stupid and celebrate love on a single day, when they have the rest of the year. I mean they can do all of it and way more throughout the year, instead of finding a card that says "I Love You" in the store, some flowers and chocolate to be able to "express" feelings. Love is something that doesn't require a card, i mean and if you want a card, why buy it? when you can make one much better, with better words for the feeling you have for the other person.

The only time i've ever bought a "Hallmark" card was back in the summer, when i really didn't have any idea to say to my ex and i bought her a thank you card and a rose to say good bye to her forever, and at the last minute, i ended up creating a whole poem. Maybe it's just me, but Valentine's day is just an invention to make people buy needless things. It is also a day for those who stand by themselves to remember memories that you want to keep in the back of your mind.
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So on friday, i finally finished with exams, i hope i did good, although, i still haven't found out results of 4 out of 6 tests. I gave some tutorials to some friends during the week and i am thinking of maybe making it into a business or something. I think i could run a webpage and the schedule appointments for students in the surrounding universities in several topics and hire some other smart students to give the tutorials.

I got out at 11:30 am that day, i went to the gym, took a shower and went to library, i stayed there helping some friends with some math problems and then at 2 o'clock i was supposed to meet Rocio at the Cafe in school. i got there fashionably late (5 minutes) and talked to her for a while, we kept going to and from the registrar's office for she needed some letter so that she could go get her passport Saturday morning. I was supposed to call Kelli at around 3, so i went to a study room at the library and got on skype. There she was online, i called her but unfortunately she was about to have dinner. I said hi and then hung up. I met with the gang in the students hall and waited while we decided what to do that night.

We ended up deciding to go get some stuff at the supermarket and then off to Rich's house. We played Rockband 'til about 9ish-10ish then some people left and i got bored. I went upstairs to the restroom and i found Rocio laying on the couch. I think she was asleep and i woke her up. he he he. So i went downstairs again and i tried talking to her on msn, i dunno i found it a little awkward being there alone with her in the dark so i kept asking her to come downstairs to the bar and play with us. So while rich and both Pablos played halo, Rocio and i Played with the dice, we bet several things (coffee, ice cream, a mini, and pepper powder) Ha ha ha, Yes, Pepper Powder, we are so crazy, but anyway, she beat me most of the time, so i owe her all of those things, except for the ice cream. That, she owes to me. We talked during the rest of the night until about 1ish am, that's when everybody left.




so i stopped writing a while ago because i was getting tired( a little bit) so i went in and started watching a movie: Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, i had forgotten what it was all about. I mean i know what the book was about, but you know how the movies always change stuff from the book. The thing that i hate the most about that movie is that they let out so many key facts that will be retaken during the 7th part. The funeral of Dumbledore and the white tomb..... So, while watching the movie, i realized that Kelli is and looks quite a lot like Hermione. :) i don't know if i ever told her, i think i did once.


But anyway, continuing my story..

Once i got to my apartment i wanted to find a country song that would mean something to me, but i gave up for i'm always listening to country and i would eventually find it. Instead, i decided to look for the movie that includes the song stuck in my head, "Closer" i found it and i stated watching the first 15 minutes until i found out i was too tired to stay up. I got online for Rocio said that the first thing i would do once i got home would be to get online to talk to her, i wanted to check if she was online just so that i could say Good night. She was online, but she never replied, i assumed she was already asleep. ha ha, it was my fault she stayed up late, her usual bedtime is around 10-11.

There's a lot been going on right now, but i suppose i'll leave that story for another post.
For now, i would just like to say, Thanks to you people who have stayed by my side and are called friends. Happy "dia de la amistad" as they call it here, i will leave the love portion out for the real name is "Dia del amor y la amistad" because i don't have anyone by my side at this moment. And after all i have passed through i know exactly what kind of person it is i would like to have.

"The best things in life come to you Unexpectedly"

Peace Out


Oh, I got to talk to Kelli today, It was hillarious because we had so much trouble with the video and audio, so we were like Hello Da-kgukjb-ny, Hi K-kkjgkjgh-li, how are Yolkjghgkhg, ha ha.
I wasn't able to see her, so i was making weird faces and i heard her making the faces and stuff. It was really funny.

Btw if you want to listen to the song, here's the link


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YXVMCHG-Nk

The Sun is Bright ///February 4th 2010

I'm sorry i haven't been able to type anything down lately, like i had said before, school and work have me running forth and back.

So anyway, what's been new lately?

Not very much really.

I have Exams Next week. Monday is going to be awful, i have 3 exams that day: Mechanics of Materials, Electricity and Magnetism, and Dynamics.

About two days ago i got sick, i really don't know what was wrong with me, i just didn't have any appetite for two days and my tummy hurt. I felt that if i had eaten anything i would have thrown up. I started feeling like that on Tuesday night, on Wednesday morning i headed to school as usual and while i was in the design laboratory i started feeling dizzy and sick. I decided to leave. I realized however, that it was still early (9am). Which happens to be Rush Hour.

I changed my path to the cafeteria and had some hot Peppermint tea while i got on my computer and checked on my email and some other things. To my Surprise, Kelli was online, i talked to her for a little while only though, her computer was dying on her. At around 10 i left, there was some traffic leftover from the rush hour still. But nothing to be worried about.

Once i got home, i passed some files onto my computer ( i needed to do some translations i hadn't started on). I decided to sleep for a while. Once i got up, i felt way better. i think i must have been wore down or maybe exhausted. i had never experienced exhaustion before in my life. It feels terrible. I checked on my computer and i had a lost call. :( oh well.


I got up and started working on some homework and then i headed to work. I am thinking about quitting my job at western Union. I really haven't had the time to keep up with everything. i have two jobs and school. so i will just keep my job at Microbotix and focus on school. the good thing about Microbotix is that i would work right accross the street from my school and i would only work for 1 hour and a half everyday. :)

I haven't got anything meaningful to express as of right now, i don't think. Oh yeah, i just remembered, i need to look up several scholarships. That Roberto Rocca Foundation sure has a really awesome one.

I've been talking to Rocio a lot lately, we've become really good friends. She's Hillarious and makes me laugh quite a lot. Her Brother thinks we're like secret lovers or something, ha ha, she's just my friend. Plus she's only 17.....

I've got really good friends at school now, that makes me really happy.

The other day i felt quite well when one of my classmates asked me to give him tutorials on Electricity and Magnetism. I felt like "ooooh, I'm smart"

I hate how i cannot wear any of my jeans anymore, they are all so loose. I've been working out lately and that combined with stress and a messed up meal schedule have made me lose weight. So whenever i start running i have to hold them up or jump to put them in place ha ha. it looks quite funny though.

There's this trend on Facebook about putting up a picture of a celebrity that looks like you.
Ever since i was a kid i've been told Shia Labeouf Looks like me. and yes i say he looks like me, because of course i am me, and i am more important. :) so anyway, i think he does look like me, especially with the beard. My Hair is really messy right now, i have kind of let it be. Some would say it has an Einstein look to it.

Facebook doesn't really get me so excited as it used to before. i suppose i've lost touch with so many "friends" on there that used to be good ones, just like when your world changes all of a sudden. I suppose that happened to me. But its true what they say, one all of your fake friends have left you, only the true ones will be standing by your side.

I am thinking about getting a haircut, but i don't know whether to keep it long or cut it shorter. whenever i ask people, they give me different answers. Gah. I suppose i will ask the important ones and see what they say. I don't know, image is not as important as it used to be to me before. And i don't know whether that's good or not. My Long hair is quite fun to play with though, and i can make it go funny ways that my good friends laugh at.

Oh, i almost forgot. I have had this song called "2 is better than 1" by Boys Like Girls and Taylor Swift stuck in my head since like 3 weeks ago i heard it while working out. I find it thoughtful. There was another song i heard on the radio i really like, i dunno who's it by, but i think it dates back to the 90's it goes something like "i am sorry i am a little late... shalala shalala" Ha Ha i forgot how it went, when i listen to it again i will remember.

I read Kelli's new story "on High" just yesterday. Once again, it made me think a lot. Angel wings, would it really be a curse if you did become an angel. I mean, of course it would be sad if you forgot everything and just thought of going high up in the sky. Isn't it everyone's dream though, to be able to fly and be free of the chains that this material world has. Plus i mean, Wings. Imagine having cool looking Wings on your back and to be able to fly and feel the wind on your face and the sun's warmth. I suppose the real angels in life are those who are there by our side no matter what and give us advise.

I want to read a good book, but i don't have time!!!!

I had forgotten how good it feels to express your ideas somewhere, even if it is just a diary that wont be able to respond or give you advise. Its just that you let many things inside of you go into ink on paper or bites on a computer. It really is magical.



PD: Whatever i forgot to post now will come to my mind later, i will keep posting. :D