Monday, March 29, 2010

Equations, Moving, and Life /// March 29th 2010


I started my spring break last Friday, here in Mexico, they have spring break during Holy week.
I haven't done much on my break, lets see. On Friday, i got out of school at 11:30, however i talked to Kelli during my numerical methods class and a little after i got out of classes, i walked out to the small outside cafeteria and tried to show it to her, however, for some reason, my stupid computer doesn't work well with video when it is not plugged to the power. I brought it with me to the library so that i could try to Skype with her, we did for a while, but then i lost her. She doesn't have much reception in her room, she was sitting on Lauren's bed, just to get the most of it. I hope she gets better soon, for she sprained her ankle a few days ago, it must be horrible to walk with crutches. I've never had to, but when i hurt my neck, the neck thing i had to use was so uncomfortable..., plus knowing Kelli, she likes to be running and jumping around. :) once i lost her i was bored for a while, for everyone still had class, walked around, said hi to a few people. Oh btw, it was really funny, for when i was Skyping and talking out loud, everyone was giving me this weirdo look; i could imagine them inside their heads saying: "Why is that guy talking to himself, or to his computer, he must be nuts or something" ha ha.
At 12, R told me she would meet me at the Cafe at 2 pm, so i waited in "Las Quesadillas" ( a little food shop close to the engineering labs) and had myself a torta de milanesa with fries on the side. I met my friend Arturo there, he was about to eat too, we talked and stuff and he passed some movies and TV series onto my computer. Arturo is a really weird guy, he's very nice, but he's weird big time, he's really quiet most of the time, and he says he's got no friends, just mates. But i don't care i know we all who hang out together with him are all his friends.
At 2, i went to the cafe and waited for R, i realized that it was really hot and sunny outside, and i just hate to get sunburned. so i decided to wait in front of the water font in a table with an umbrella. I saw her as she was walking towards the cafe, i was gonna walk up to her there, but then i thought of the Hot sun, and i just yelled her name out. She came and sat next to me, its really funny for she was dressed in green. Ever since i told her i liked how green looked on her, she has dressed in it twice, and i have seen her 3 times ever since then. I don't know if it was a coincidence or something else, i just think its funny. I think it's weird, for the color green has had a lot of influence on my life lately, just a lot of stuff that are close to me are green or have something to do with it. I think i should make up a story or a poem about green.
Later on a group of friends and me went to the movies and saw "How to train your Dragon", it was a really good movie, i liked it a lot. We hung out at Starbucks for a while and then i came back to school, where my friend Carlos went to pick me up, we were about to play Night Gotcha.
It was about the second time that i played Gotcha in my life, none the less at night, it was really fun, i got hit about a dozen times and many of them on my mask, you can see how the paint hits, some of them were on my legs and i got bruises. It was all worth it though, i had lots of fun.
Saturday and Sunday i did nothing... Today, i'm going to call a few friends to see if they wanna go play Basketball, and maybe i'll start out on the green story or poem.

This week was really full of events. I got my grade, which were surprisingly awesome, with exception of Dynamics, i got a 75, it it weren't for that, i would have got a higher average. Right now i have got a 92 average, which is good, but i know i can do better. People call me "Nionio" ni, standing for the letter enie, i don't have it in my keyboard, you know the n with the little ~ on top. "nionio" means Nerd, they don't say it in a mean way however, its just that i always get good marks, and i always want to get higher marks, for me a b is unacceptable, it feels as though i failed.

This week, Tec de Monterrey was dressed in black, two students died in between a shooting outside of school in the Monterrey campus. It's a shame on how some innocent people are killed because of the narcotics traffic and the war between the army and the organized crime. According to the Dean's version, the students walked out of school, they were confused with hitm hit-men en and they were shot by the police. They were hidden at the morgue for two days, and the police was trying to hide their identities, until the university kept pushing for them and the families recognized the bodies. Lately, the cartels and the police have got more violent against each other, for President Calderon is really cornering them, and when any animal is cornered, it tends to be more aggressive and attack. Unfortunately, us innocent regular people, when caught in between, also pay the consequences. I was planning on attending the Monterrey campus, i really wanted to be there, for i would be closer to home, Houston is only 6 hours away. I'd be able to visit every 2 weeks or so, from here, it takes 20 hours by car to get there. However, even though i really want to go there, i won't for now, my mom would get really worried about me if i did. And when my mom gets worried, she tends to get sick. I don't want that. My dad called me really worried, the day following the shooting, asking me not to live in Monterrey, or to just move back home. My family is currently in a bad economical situation, which is why i left in the first place. He was telling me that we'd find a way, and to be honest it sounds really tempting, to go back home and be with my family and friends over there. I pray only that my dad is able to get the job that he wants, it would make our lives way easier.
I sigh when i think of my story, I've passed through so many things you'd never imagine.

I still don't know what i'll do, and while i give it a thought, i'll pass the time caught up in Physics, Differential Equations, Greek letters and my dreams that stand before me.





Thursday, March 18, 2010

Anxiety/// March 19th 2010


Woke up one day, i realized something was missing,
The clock kept running, the night was still deep and dark
i wish i knew what was that spark
that could make it all complete

Roll in my bed
put the pillow on my head, turn it so that the cold side
can help to calm me down

Fall asleep, wake up again
sit up, rub my eyes, scratch my ear
what's this thing i fear?

No idea of what it is
can't think clearly, i'm so confused
why did i do, what i have done?
what's the reason, i haven't won

what's a man to do, when he's got nowhere to go
home was long time lost
all i did, it had a cost
i'm not tranquil, i'm not calm

Fall asleep, wake up again
what's the might inside my head?
my heart, enough has bled
and all the things i haven't said
i want to make it all stop

i'm really cold, where's my blanket?
i have it on, i am still cold
i'm shaking, i'm sweating, i'm hot
what is this thing that i have not

Can't sleep, can't breath, can't feel


The empty space for that one thing
the white skin showing, that golden ring
The messy hair, the tired eyes, the lack of sleep
the mark it left, it was so deep
I still don't know what it might be...








Saturday, March 13, 2010

My Puente /// March 14th 2010


Okay, so i know i haven't posted anything in a while. To be honest with you i haven't had any free time during the past few weeks, exams and work have kept me really busy. During Exams week i had little time for sleep, literally i slept about 15 hours in 5 days. That's like 2 days worth of sleeping in a whole week. So yesterday, i was very tired, and i got to my grandma's house and watched Pinocchio with my little cousin Abril and i was falling asleep during the movie, until my little baby cousin Leo came and hit me on the face with a bowl. But anyway yeah, I've been meaning to write, not much has happened in my life lately, but i suppose the little that has happened is somewhat important. I have this saying "every little detail is very important, and those that are littlest have the most importance, for they define how curvy a curve is".

I wanted to write a story in this blog, i really wanted to be able to post something that's worth reading, and as i was typing on my laptop i realized i put too much of my life into characters and a story in general. I really have no idea if that's good or not, i think i need the help of a professional in the matter( ahem, Kelli) in order to find it out. I also need a lot of help into knowing how to really structure a story, and how to come up with so many ideas for further on stories. I wonder how she does it, and every single time she gets me so tangled up in them that i dunno, it's just amazing. So yeah, in order to write a story for your enjoyment, i will need a lot of help. :D

For my puente i thought there was gonna be nothing to do, so i started out my day by waking up at 11 am (So happy, because i slept for 9 hours) i had breakfast (Scrambled eggs and ham, ooooh that just reminded me of green eggs and ham by Dr Seuss, ha ha, such a good old memory from childhood) and i watched some videos online. I then realized i had received an email two days ago from my boss asking me for my presentations i was supposed to translate, oh darn , i hadn't started because of exams, so i spend my whole day translating them into English.

During my day however, (one of the best things about my job is that i can do anything i want while i translate stuff) i decided to watch videos on Fuel Cells and read about their making and their functioning. They are quite amazing technologies, those fuel cells. They are easy and cheap to make and produce no pollution, for their residues is plain water. That gave me a really cool idea, maybe i can experiment with hydrogen fuel cells for a while at school and do some projects and then maybe i will be able to hit the market with them and be able to help the environment with the development of new technologies towards new alternative forms of energy while going forward with the Green Phoenix Project.

I've had a lot of anxiety lately, i have no idea why. Ever since my car accident, I've been coming up with new ideas and new attitudes and i hope it turns out to be something good. For example i've teamed up with my friend Carlos, so that we can design and build our own airplane, we'll start out next week. He studied Aeronautics in the University of Texas and is now studying his second major at Tec de Monterrey in Mechatronics. So i'll be able to help while i learn a lot of stuff, for some reason i really want to be able to leave a good impression on the world. The other day i went for a coffee with my friend Adriana to Cafe punta del cielo in school and we sat for a while while we talked and she asked me of my life, thing that not many people do. While i told her part of my story she was amazed of how far I've got all by myself, and it really got me motivated. I know i'm really ambitious, but i think that it can be a really good thing to aim really high. It's just like they say, "Aim for the moon, even if you don't get there, you'll land among the stars".

I've got caught up with several songs this past few weeks, it's just that music is really amazing. I enjoy how it makes you feel so many different ways: Happy, Sad, Loved, in need of Love, Friendly, Strong, capable of doing anything. It's true when they say that notes were the gift of God to human kind. As you may already know, i really enjoy country music. :D i've listened Tim Mcgraw and Brad Paisley a lot lately. I've got to enjoy and learn a lot of their songs. I want to learn some on the guitar, and i will once i have time, which on be until the summer.
I also mean to write a song, I've got some verses written down, and some somewhere inside my head, i just need some time to sit down, sing it over and over, change words, notes, pitches and stuff. I'm really good when it comes to writing songs, when i was a teenager i used to write down some. Last summer when i went home, i found my old notebook and i saw several of them, they brought me so many memories. Like i wrote one about the rodeo in Houston once. I really miss Houston, and the rodeo. It is being carried out right now and i so wish i was there...


I was talking to Rocio tonight, and she fell asleep on me :P meanie. oh well i'll talk to her tomorrow. I've kind of got used to talking to her a lot. I like it how she gives me company during the afternoons, even if it is through im's. It is one of the things that gets hard when you live by yourself, sometimes you feel kind of lonely. I'm glad i get to talk to my friends from time to time. I wish Spain wasn't 7 hours away. Talking to Kelli would be so much easier.

But anyway, aside that, i am so excited about the fuel cell thing!!!
Oooooh Today's Pi Day!!!!! (3.14) :D only a geek like me would get excited for that ha ha. i don't mind, i know i am a geek, a cool geek however.

I really miss taking weird awesome random Pictures.

And yeah, that's all that has come up to my mind that i was able to remember. Oh i almost forgot, i don't know if you've heard he song called "Ocean Avenue" by Yellowcard. It played on my itunes today. And just like 2 years ago, it got me all thinking, it makes me feel so weird when the verse
" I remember the look in your eyes,
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight,
Not here,
Not now.
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night,
Somewhere, somehow ..."

comes up. I dunno if it is important to mention, but just like i said before, who knows. btw if you want me to let you know about songs i think are awesome. just let me know, I'll be glad to recommend some.

Good night Y'all.