A lot of things have gone through my mind lately. Well there are always things going through my mind. If it is not school, then it is work; if it is not work, then it is leisure; if it isn't leisure, then it is some "stupid" Theory about something either scientific or philosophical.
The last time i posted something was the day before school started; it kind of makes you realize of how absorbing can school be. My First day of school went alright, i expected it to be either much worse or much better. All of my classes feel as thought they were some sort of Scientific level or such. For some reason i feel all of them relate somehow, and with them i will be able to find out something about something. My favorite classes are Electricity and magnetism and Calculus of Multiple Variables.
I started with my new job at Microbotix, I give robotics classes to little kids and work from home translating stuff into English. For the first time in my life, i've stood in front of everyone in the classroom for longer than 20 minutes. Its is a great feeling to be called "teacher" "professor" "mister" and such. I have finally understood the great work it requires to be calm and patient when people do not listen and or play around. They are just kids though. It was really funny and cute how on my first day i walked through the gate of "The Irish Institute" and a little boy walked right up to me and asked "Who are you? Are you here to Teach robotics? Whats your name?" and so on. Children are so innocent and true. While in class some of them were really loud and stuff. I've learned how to manage them though. I think i am really liking to be able to be part of their Tuesdays and leave something of importance in their minds. I Really like kids, i think that whenever i become a father, i'll do a great job. At least i will try to be with them a lot.
While watching my stupid TV series, i was able to watch how some fathers were there for their children whenever they were kids. My dad's still alive, he's a nice guy and all. I have found out that i barely even know him. The last memory of him from my childhood dates back to when i was 6 years old. I remember playing frisbee in the street in from of my house in Chiapas. Oh those days are so long gone. If you could only know the story of what drove us away from that place. I suppose i'll post it up some other time. One thing i know for sure: once i grow older and i am able to Work(in a nicer Engineering Job) i will take my dad on a trip to get to know him better.
I miss my mom a lot. My cooking is not that great.....
Meeting new people is probably what i've enjoyed the most about this school year. I've met about 5 new persons. From today on though, my new year's resolution (besides getting in shape and stuff) will be to talk to people even if i am too shy to do so. It feels really good to walk around campus and find people who say hi to you.
Even though i know a wholesome bunch of persons, i feel lonely. I think something went wrong in my head last April when "the incident" happened. Well i think i am excused somehow, it kind of scarred me.
My favorite cousin came back from Orlando, i am so happy. She is like a sister to me. Last sunday i got to spend the day with her. We watched "The Time Traveler's wife" and talked all night. I had one of the most productive talks i've had in a long time. I was able to Let go of many things i've kept in for so long. I had a shoulder to cry on at last. That's what i need to do i suppose, to let go of the tears of Pride, Sadness, Anger, heartbreak. We men are so proud, that we keep everything inside. Or at least i do. It's so hard to try to talk to someone who you barely know about something so deeply hidden within your own self.
Kelli takes off to Spain tomorrow. I hope she has a safe flight and a safe stay in Sevilla. I think she's mad at me or something. I dunno. She sent me this message on skype that made me feel kind of like a bother.... I really don't mean to be one. I'm sorry if i ever was.
Once again, for some reason, music makes me feel all tingly and stuff. Ever heard FFVII soundtrack? Oh my. Nobuo Uematsu is a genius when it comes to make you feel stuff through music. FFVII is my favorite video game of all time. You get so tangled up in the story as though you were the main character. I remember when i was a kid, i fell in Love with Aerith. Ha ha
I Still need to get new strings for my guitar... need to learn a few new songs. Not that anyone would want to listen to them. I still do it for myself. I love to feel the strings in my fingers while the notes play. I don't think anyone but Kelareh and my brothers has have heard me sing while playing something. Oh, and Cristy; she doesn't count though.
About a week ago, my friend Carlos said something that got to me: "I always look for the way to say I'm sorry to those whom i may have hurt". It reminded me of how i need to start doing some work around.
I'm very tired, i don't remember what else i wanted to say.
Oh, The picture i posted, i took it a while ago cause i thought it was pretty. i dunno if it has anything to do with what i wrote or not. Maybe in my mind it does...
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